sigh.

Just talked to dee just now on msn. Was sooo good to see her again on the webby.I think i finally said what i had stored in my heart for so long.about how i felt for her and acknowledging that her for the crap that she took for these past few years.Also told her how i dont condone that she's getting a pr there but ultimately its her happiness that im after.well you cant have two things at once right?Looking back at the neo prints that we took togerther just flashes back so many memories of us. I told her that i was the luckiest person to have such a wonderful girlfriend that was supportive and faithful not to mentioned gorgeous. She asked me to join her there and that set me thinking..................but what about my mom?and my sis?..
i know my mom is depending on me to take care of them both.I guess Allah has bigger agenda for me.This is another situation where you can have one but not the other...but leaving my mom is not an option.have to think of another alternative then. Maybe just working there i suppose...i dunno im still thinking cause this is my life.sigh. but i think i already know where this leads to.but maybe some surprises in my life right now might just be a good thing.i love her..Remember that fendi.
sigh.

Woah

Its been over a year since i last posted..Damn..well i guess thats what blogs are for.Update on my life

-Was working for advance handlers in the import section of Exel warehouse for a good 7 months
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My boo left me for Nz to get her PR (hope she doesnt get it)keke so she can come back homelah...sigh miss her again..

-I visted her on 11/ 9/06 to see how she's doing.Dood pls note(her BIL is an ass man..two face mother fucker.i know im not the best boyfriend in the world but nobody deserves to be treated like how she was treated.Not my dee.Just gimme a reason to find fault with him...pls

-Sometimes i wish i had the guts to say marry me b.She knows that i love her.I regret not saying yes to her hinting questions but probably i'll ask her.I wanna take care of her..wanna be her knight in shining armour who rescues her..but im afraid that i wont be up to the challenge.i dont want her to be disappointed ..Checked her mail the other day and saw her messaging this some other guy..was sooooo pissed off.i admit that after that incident i started to miss her and feel all mushy..why am i like this?..i guess i'm afraid to loose her and have been treated her for granted.Yes i admit that.IM SORRY BUT IM SELFISH WHEN IT COMES TO YOU!and i swear that i dont go finding one night stand.Im a strict one woman man.I hate to be deceived by my best friend and i dont want to be doing that to you cause the feelings fucktup...sigh..

well got a job as a graphic designer now..somehow feel that my brain juice is nt flowing..dunno why..i wanna tell this to my best friend but ...i dont want to bother her about my topsy turvy world.I think she already has her hands full.i'll spare you the worry honey.

Ok mosh gtg. Have to finish a namecard design by tommorrow.Hope she calls me tomorrow.i'll be so happy!..but ofcourse must maintain..guy mah!ahaks